Where are all the people like me?

Bombarded with images of subjects on sofas and idealistic depictions of the darkness we both allegedly face. but I am not like them. It is in no way a competition, but I beg of you to tell me which league I am part of. Please help find those of my struggle.

Every job lost has been due to me never leaving my room. for days at a time. sometimes weeks.

I recall a time where I could leave a job cleanly. now I just stop showing up.

One container of toothpaste lasts all year.

my car has served as my room.

I have no one that cares for me or about me. I could disappear tomorrow and it would make no difference.

surprise, I have no real friends. i carry and initiate every relationship. no one proactively contacts me.

I am just exisitng

getting professional help? don't make me laugh. I fell for that one too many times. nothing prepares you for the belitting and dehumanization.

where are the people like me? everyone else pushes through and gets the help they need. I wither away and suffer in silence. I feel alone in this fight as people like me are never represented. we are untouchable I presume.

we are in this purgatory. too gone to get help and too gone to not get help. the latter costs less so i'll take the lesser of the two evils....

Have I not found people like me because there are none left?