Words unspoken

My heart is heavy., I dont know how to deal with this. I am sad. Extremely sad. I dont think I matter at all. Lord please help me. Help me think that I am not a mistake. Help me think I am not a glitch in this world., That I am not that person that people wont even notice. I want to scream. I want to wail. But the thing is, I think I run out of feeling my emotions. I can feel that people only tolerates me. I feel like Im a burden. Professionally they need me but only for my skills and nothing more. I feel empty. I am not even that smart. I dont even think I am that good. I just like doing my job. But other than that I am nothing. I feel nothing. I hope I would find courage to seek help. Lord I know you are real. I believe in you. My pain will end. I would conquer this. Again, just like before. I trust you. ❤️