You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Why do I have to feel things so strongly? I long for the times when I'm numb. I long for the moments when I don't need other people because I wouldn't have half of these issues if other people weren't around. I have major depressive disorder but it is worsened by my environment. I just want to disappear honestly. I'm sick of being attached to people. It isnt their fault but I'd be better off alone. Problem is, when I try to be alone, I get these withdrawal symptoms. Even when I try to get away from here for a day. It is like an addiction. I get jealous and lash out and I'm sick of it, of myself. People are sick of me too. It makes me want to hurt myself or maybe just disappear completely. I hate myself
@Lexloveslife I am so sorry you're feeling that way. I know it can be hard at times, but I would consider seeing a counselor. I can only do so much, but I am always here for you. Don't hate yourself, I know its hard not to sometimes. There's times where I hate myself too, but it doesnt make things better. I know you can get through this, and I will be here for you, to try and do my best to help you
Does anyone else feel weird? Like things are happening and you are just seing it but it's not you? I'm at work and I keep zoning out, I can't focus on anything at all! People talk to me and I respond but I feel like it's not me like I'm on autopilot like my brain knows what to say automatically but I don't feel it! am I'm crazy? Does anyone else feel this?
I feel like an idiot. I'm a junior in college and cant even pass freshman classes with more than a D. I use to have a 4.0 gpa, I never had an issues with grades or motivation. Now I just dont care at all but I cant drop out becuase then I'll be a failure to the family. my depression is getting worse, causing my grades to get worse, causing my anxiety to get worse, which makes me depression worse, which makes you grades worse, etc. It just keeps going and no one cares. I'm on meds and in therapy and I feel like my therapist just blows off what I say. Obvious signs that something is seriously wrong and he just ignores it. I just feel stuck and like I have no idea what to do, I feel like I have no options.
Why couldnt my former self stand up for herself? (Im a trans boy btw) why did she have to be so stupid and naive as to think that the world's a good place?
@SympatheticPrune2000 Everyone notices more and more things wrong with the world as they get older. Being blind to is is part of it
@MustBeMoreToLife but I
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@SympatheticPrune2000 do you mind explaining?
@MustBeMoreToLife she was too different so she got severely bullied... and basically we came out the other end. A lot of things happened because of that and not all of them were good
I HATE Red Dead Redemption 2.
Life has been pretty stressful and I dont know what to do. My stepdad is verbally abusive, my dad got arrested for capital murder (cold case that got solved) I keep having night terrors, my dog just got diagnosed with kidney failure, and Im literally so stressed all the time that Im having panic attacks. Ive fallen back into some old habits Im not proud of and honestly feel nothing all at the same time.
@Simpleshadows get as much help as you can going through these rough life experiences! I can feel for for dealing with all of that that really sucks I'm sorrry!! But there are people who care like everyone in this forum and me and everyone that loves you whether you know it or not and you can't get discouraged when bad things happen in life because that's where the most valuable lessons are learned and personally I've learned hard experiences like those are what can shape you to be a strong amazing person who can help so many others when you get out of it. Know that you aren't alone and there are many people going thru similar situations and it's not any of it your fault you just got unlucky
I gave these feelings where all i want to do is be alone. but when im alone i feel so unloved and unwanted. i try to just make myself numb so i cant feel anything because everyone hates me and tries their best to make my life hell and all i want to do is just disappear. i get made fun of because of my appearance and i just want to die and leave everyone. i have major trust issues because everytime i tell anyone anything it gets out so quickly and people talk shit about me so much and i dont get why no one can just give anyone a chance anymore. i try telling people im scuicidal but no one takes me seriously and i just dont know what to do because i want to disappear but no one will help me.
@brookedoyle1029 why does this sound like something i typed lol. I literally feel you and I'm very sorry you feel this way. Know you're not ever alone as much as it feels like it and when you want to isolate yourself Sometiems it is actually better to be around others to lift you up instead of drowning in sorrow and self pity. Trust me it helps
I guess I've only lived a fraction of my life, so I can't say much. But when your loved ones start to disappear and fate never gives you new friends or partners, the end point in life becomes blurred and vague. Maybe its just meant to be and fate wants me to live life alone and to reflect. A couple years ago, I thought education might be my only way out. I could form a bright future and distract myself with the arts of science and literature, but thats the future and what matters is the present. I don't sleep, eat, or take care of myself which can be directly traced back to academic overwork. Now, the burden depression puts on me is not only physcological but physical. My immune system has definitely deteriorated over the past couple of years and I can safely say I do not feel healthy 24/7 since August of 2017. I should of mentioned earlier that I grew up in a family that financially gave me everything but did not exist on an emotional level. My brother heavily bullied me when I was younger and my parents weren't there for me. Anyways, I'll just keep trying in life since thats what everyone seems to say even though I have hours upon hours upon hours of school work which is impossible to keep up unless you are a robot. I guess I am trying to do everything at once and be superman...
@quietZebra5369 sounds like you feel like even though you are physically alive you don't feel like you're really living if that makes sense. And I feel the same way. It's hard to feel like you are important and valued in this life of so many people and so many life paths. Just don't get discouraged and reach out as much as you can even though your childhood tells you to keep it all inside bc that's what you got taught to do
I want to talk to my local GP but without my parents finding out. Any tips?
I wish I could control my urges and sex drive 🙈 it's getting unbearable
@Yourbestbuddy26 I actually have a friend with a similar issue, I bet it's been told to you before but he said the best help he found was to turn those urges into something. Especially something agressive, heavy music, abstract art, or even funnily enough erotic writing. Even if you don't know if it's something you'd be good at it never hurts to start.