You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
I've been on a rough depressive episode the last few days. I can't focus on work, to where I'm worried about getting fired. My significant other is burned out and trying to be there for me but it's taking a toll on him. I'm bad enough to where I can't bottle it up this time. Talk therapy isn't for me due to past trauma. I'm not on medication and can't afford the medical debt. I have more urgent health problems manifesting I can't even get checked out. The apartment is a mess and I can't bring myself to clean. I can barely make myself eat, and am showering every other day. I know the struggle that exists in my head. I feel it even though others can't see it. It makes me feel bad. Makes me feel worse.
I feel like I'm always complaining, and feel guilty and lazy.
@brightTree5008 You're not lazy. You're doing the best you can. It's not your fault that doctors and medications are so expensive. What other people did to you isn't your fault either.
I hope things get better soon.
@BlueBetta
Thank you for your kindness.
@brightTree5008 hey, if i were you...i'd be exhausted too..crushed. so many things going on. yet you are still strong going through it. its amazing. doesn't sound like a complain and lazy at all. i wish i could be there for you.
@brightTree5008 Hi there! I'm sorry you are going through all of this, you are not alone. I've been having a pretty okay week until I started feeling like crap a couple of days ago. It's been hard to get out of bed, go outside, and even respond to calls. I even ignored my aunt's call this morning, and she feels like I'm ignoring her when in actuality, talking to people takes a lot of energy vs. texting. Just hang in there and I'm sure things will get better soon (:
I am so tired. I just want rest. Sleep doesn't help much. I want to just... Sleep. Forever.
Sleep well.
I can never seem to be happy anymore, I feel so worthless and I cannot even face waking up in the morning, I hate it. Having to see myself in the mirror. I cant even recognise myself, all my family notice Im different, everything is just getting on top of me and I can barely breath anymore. Everyday I feel like Im dying over and over again. I cant even cry anymore. I dont feel anything
I've come to realize that I've binge watched everything I'd like to binge watch at the moment on YouTube. Now I'm kind of bummed but also feel stupid for it? It's a silly thing to rant about but it still kind of bothers me a little.
Id love to rent and scream and shout but honestly I dont really have much energy for things theses days i just want to sleep or rest or just have a slit of a second to my self I have a job that everyday am there am dying not to be there but I need the job not for money or that but I need to try and find a purpose to why I even still exist other then I find the idea of suicide stupid not in the dah that dump cense but to my mind death is nothing ells but a lesser punishment the better type of punishment is to life with it forever eating at you taking away all the thing you love peace by peace and you can do nothing but watch your world burn because in all honesty I dont even have a clue why am even alive or even if I am I always have the nagging felling that am just a passenger in my body when I see my hand move Am wondering why are they moving when am standing and felling tired I just want to collapse but my body still moves Id go on about that idea but honestly am done for the day maybe an other day
@leoPhoenix117
I want to rant about how stupid the universe is and how it is unaware of what I want in my life. I want awesome friends and a girlfriend/wife. Is that too much to ask for? Is this loneliness and being single ever going to end?
@neffjeff951
i know the felling I want to have a life where I dont fell like am outside looking in that I dont fell like the only thing thats left that fells good is the emptyness because at least thats not going to hurt me it like me by this point needs it because without it Id probably just be a husk a shell of what one was something that resembled me lucky I have a girlfriend who is my anker to whats left to my humanity tho honestly she dont know how far down the rabbit hole i really am which is for the best because if she seen the real me whats left in that pit she wouldnt see a person but a monster. A n animal this beast scratching at the walls for just a glimmer of light
I was married for 22 years. I have been single for one year. I have been talking to a guy on a dating app. Everything seemed to be going good. He asked if my red hair was my natural color. I told him that I dye it red. Then he blocked me. I dont think I am ready for dating yet. It is too hard.
@mingming21
I'm sorry he was a waste of time.
If he was that shallow what a lucky escape.
Doesn't mean you shouldn't try again, If your feeling comfortable with yourself.
I have been single for years there are some benefits to the single life.
But if its not for you just take your time to get to know people before you meet them.
There are still good people in this world but finding someone who likes you & you them warts & all is a challenge. Its not impossible.
Stay away from the individuals who just want sex & are all about outward appearence.
There are too many diseases to catch.
Life is too short to be shallow lol
Take time to relearn who you are as a single person.
Parents disapprove of my relationship, even though it is very supportive and loving. I have recently made a big step in my education and was hoping for support from my parents, but their disapproval of my partner has completely overshadowed the steps I have taken. Somehow it feels like my 'mistakes' (in their eyes) have somehow cancelled out anything productive and positive that I am doing. I wish I didn't feel the need for their support and affection to be happy but I do, but I also recognize the importance of my relationship and how much joy it brings me. I don't know what to do and I have been completely unable to enjoy any interactions with family members as well as my partner because of fear of balancing the two. I have the urge to cut them all off which is obviously a destructive instinct and not the right thing to do but the urge is so strong that all my energy has gone into resisting it.
@silverflyingisotope
Sounds like a good idea to distance yourself from your parents for a while, if even just a week, and focus on your relationship with your partner. I know that feeling of disapproving parents and it sucks, but in the end, them birthing you doesn't give them the right to interfere in your life. So if they keep being a negative influence on your happiness, I would consider completely cutting them from your life, like you would with a toxic friend. Last resort of course, but my point is, them being your parents is a privilege they can lose
I am tired of ranting...there must be smth better...