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I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Feeling extra depressed today and what do I get? Some stranger saying that I am rude and cursed. Where does he go off with saying that anyways. He doesn't even know me but they say "hurt people, Hurt people". So I am completely going to disregard anything that jerk had to say. These online dating groups are full of perves. Doesn't anyone want a serious relationship anymore or am I dumb just to go looking for one. Am I even worthy? My ex made it a point that I wasn't anything because I'm just a slut just like every other female. What is it with men anyways? What do they want from me? My body? My heart? My mind? I given it all up and nothing in return, just pain. I haven't been myself lately. Sad, depressed and mentally abused. I'm so tired, my mind is so tired and I know my ex is only getting started. Why won't just leave me alone. How am I going to make it through this? Can I make it through this? Will I make it through. The darkness is so thick, I can't see my way out.
@tealWalker8114
Terrible to hear this happened to you and you feel this way. I don't think you're stupid for wanting a genuine relationship, you deserve one if that's what you desire. I have no experience being a woman, but I do see a lot of women deal with so much unfair shit. Men do suck, and so do a lot of people in general, but please don't let that convince you that you don't deserve better. Everyone does.
From what you said, I can tell you've been through a lot and made it out, damaged but alive. Maybe this is not for me to say, but I would advice you to seek professional help to deal with the damage your ex has inflicted on you, before seeking out a new relationship.
And if your ex keeps doing what he's been doing, report him to the police, his behaviour is unacceptable. Towards you, towards anyone.
Anyways, hope anything I said helped even a little, stay strong and be kind to yourself
@tealWalker8114 Hey, Im sorry to hear about all of that happening to you. I really get it, I do. Its like no matter how much pain youre enduring, life is like Eh, just throw in a shit-ton more and youre already in such deep shit.
It happens to me too, and I dont want you to think youre alone because I think that as well.
I just want you to take a moment to close your eyes and take a few, long, deep breaths. Take as many as youd like. Think about something that makes you happy, in any which way. Something funny, something you dream of doing in the future. I know this probably sounds cliché but it helps. Once you take those breaths, notice how the tension on your body is much less than it was before. Youll feel more calm and in a better headspace.
Same goes with venting, which is what you did there, and I just wanted to say Im proud of you. It probably sounds weird coming from a stranger on this app but I really mean it.
Anyways, once you go on a rant or vent all your problems, its like your emotions dont feel as heavy as they were before. Its like theyre not crushing you, but theyre still putting some weight on you, but just keep ranting and/or venting and that load will get lighter and Ill be here to listen.
I hate my job. I hate how I have to do what I do. I hate my boss. Maybe hate is a strong word, but that's how I feel. I dread working every day, if I'm going to have to interact with him. I started working from home, because he decided I should be an independent contractor, but now he treats me like I don't know what I'm doing. He will work on what I have been working on, only so he can complain about it.
I need a new job. I feel like I'm never going to get one, mostly because I'm too afraid to apply anywhere. I don't think anyone will give me a chance. I hate this job, though. It's ruining my thought processes and my entire day.
@sincereOcean4592A few years ago I thought the same. My job was stressing me out and my boss was over micro managing. It was just too much, then to go home and have to be a wife and a mother with no help. So I quite my job and stayed home. Soon after my ex husband lost his job. My car was repossessed, I was homeless and nearly raped. So what I'm trying to say is that I know what you mean.
I can connect with others but nobody can genuinely connect with me. I had to cut off my only best friend whom I could open up to, because we have been toxic to each other and we did it for the best, so I'm dealing with heavy waves of missing them that also comes with a strong feeling of loneliness. My other friends? I'm cool with them, but not close honestly. And I feel like I'm their free therapist and advisor, I'm always hearing their problems but they know nothing about me. I hate being left alone with my thoughts. I crave affection so bad. My relationship with my family isn't good either. I have troubles opening up that I'm not even feeling like talking to a listener or a therapist on 7cups. I don't know who will see this, but I just needed to write this down since I can't even cry to feel better at the moment.
The last few days Ive been really hard on myself. Ive always been hard on myself, but its been more intense lately. I feel like Im worthless, a failure, an idiot, etc. I also live in a toxic environment, which I also beat myself over. Im, like, why have you stayed in this horrible place with these terrible people for so long? Youre such an idiot!.
@SNW517
its gonna be okay, are the toxic people friends family? Do they talk behind your back or hurt you. Tell me more if you can, and know your not an idiot, at all:)
I'm not sure if it the best place to get my emotions out of my system. I searched a bit and I found this thread. If this is not the appropriate place, I dunno lol
Sooooooo
I need to talk. I'm on my period. Do you know what that means? Disaster hahah Rollercoaster
Here we go.
Dear George, you seem a nice guy. I don't know much about you but I know you for many years. It's strange we never got to know each other. But yeah that happened. It's okay though. No need to change anything. It's okay. So.... I was in a phase where I wasn't sure if I liked you or not. I tried at first, I don't know why I tried for such a thing haha anyways. Solo... I'm okay now. That has passed. I'm here to say that I don't need you and you don't need me. That's the best thing you could feel. Feeling free.
I'm not going to stay all day searching for Zodiac signs to see what's going on. Omg I'm so embarrassed hahaha I hope no one judges me now. Please don't.
I don't need to message you. I used to think about it obsessively the last two three weeks or more. I mean, I didn't message you on your birthday. That maybe cruel but last year you didn't message me for my birthday and it hurt me George. I wanted you to message me. Birthdays are important for me. Sorry for being such a dick and I'm not messaging you. But I think that's the only way for me to feel better about this. I DON'T wanna have a person in my life that I only get to remember their birthday and they are not going to remember mine. I'm significant. I'm a good person. I want equal treatment. I'm sorry if you felt sad but im not sure if you did. Maybe you didn't even notice that I didn't send you. Maybe that's the case. But if you did I'm sorry but I'm important too. If you want to send you have a nice birthday and wishes you must atleast remember mine ONCE IN A WHILE. you don't know my Zodiac why do I have to know yours? Okay?
No one pushes me to do anything. Just like no one pushes you to do things for me. So I choose my path. I'm not sending you I'm not obsessing over you. I'm not anymore. If you want a friendship or a relationship to occur or continue happening, George you have to do something about it. Otherwise it fades. Okay? Yes. Okay.
Who am I to give a close attention to you if you are not doing the same.? Who am I that I'm going to send my energy to you if you are not willing to do shit? F*** YOU George. I'm not that person. You never asked me to be but I wanted to be. Now I don't. Feelings change. I kinda want to take revenge or some shit. That's how I'm feeling now. Resentment. But I know I know that's only because of my period and somehow my past. I'm not going to send you this letter George that's why I'm writing it here so you will never see it because it's embarrassing. Hahahaha imagine if I sent you such crap and open up to you in such way? You would run as fast as you could hahaha
George, these emotions are only coming and going. Why I'm telling this to George again. F*** George. To myself that's to myself.
George I don't need your fancy life. I don't need your money. I have learnt to live with my own little amount of money. I've learnt to be okay with it and Ive lived so many years with no significant amount of money. You're not gonna change that. Im not going to be with you just because of your money. Hello? I'm not shallow. I like money but I'm not going to get you for your money. That would be super cruel and pretending. I'm not that.
George, everytime we talk online we have nothing important to share. You always talk about your job, how crap you feel bout it. Stop complaininh George. You have enough money to do what you and other two people desire to do. For God's shake. I don't have money and I'm not complaining aniy my life as much as you do. Stop complaining. Be grateful for once *itch. Okay???
So George I'm good. I'm fine. I'm going to do things to improve my life. Because you're not seeing any interesting part in me. F***you George. I don't need you. I'm doing those things for myself. I used to send you a message once per month. But I'm not going to do it right now. I'm going to reduce that to once per two or three months. Depends on the mood. You have to try for me George. And you are not. I'm not doing to try for you. I'm sorry. You do you. I'm gonna do me.
I wanted to help you but you're not for me. You're not accepting the help. You need to fight for yourself. I'm leaving you now. Bye.
I just moved across the country (US) and I've been more depressed than ever. I moved in with my long term partner, but he is a student and isn't around all the time. He doesn't know how to help me with my depression.
I've applied for a bunch of jobs in the past month and I haven't gotten anything back. I'm talking like 50+ jobs. It's really affecting my mental health. In my mind, I'm thinking "I can't even get a job at McDonald's, I'm a failure".
I don't have any friends I can reach out to and I can't afford a therapist because we just moved and I don't have a job. I have no relationship with my brother and my father wants nothing to do with me. My mom just moved too and she can't help me financially.
I just feel like a huge burden. I don't know how to stay off of social media and prevent me from getting more depressed. Its a vicious cycle.
@novadeity
I recognise feeling like a burden and a failure, those are near constant thoughts going through my head as well.
Finances getting in the way of what you need mentally always sucks, and honestly shouldn't ever happen. I don't know what to tell you on that front, other than keep expressing your feelings hear, there are people that will listen and just talking to someone can help a lot.
Try and be kind to yourself, even if you can replace one negative thought with a positive one, that's great. Doesn't matter what kind of thought, maybe notice the sun shining or a pretty flower by the roadside, the small things you know.
No matter what you tell yourself, you deserve to be happy too
I found out today that my ex has another wife. Maybe but she is light skinned which my ex use to praise them as if skin color mattered. I'm dark skinned. He has two children and even name his son after our son. He is a total Narc and I knew this about him. I knew something was so off about him. How could the judge not see right through his bull and I feel lucky that I even see my kids on the weekend. This man did everything in his power to destroy me. No I'm diagnosed with schizoeffective. Like I'm the crazy one? Seriously? I praying God for things to get better. Been having nightmares. My mom loves getting a reaction out me. When did I turn into this person?
Ive been feeling a lot like a background character in my own story. Anytime I tell a story I see people lose interest and wait for me to stop talking. Their responses are often disinterested and end that train of thought, so I lose any interest in sharing my opinions or stories.
I literally can't stop crying. Imagine feeling you've found the love of your life because you feel happy around that person and that person also loves you. Well, everything fine, right?
Now imagine being told you'd "look great and awesome with short hair" many times, cutting your hair without wanting to because of those comments, and when he sees you the only thing he says is "you look fine, you didn't have to do it tho", like seriously imagine letting go the ilussion of your long hair for those words only. Imagine putting effort on your looks for a date but feeling sick so needing to see a doctor and telling your bf the date would be shorter than expected because you feel like fainting and him putting excuses because he knows he won't be able of having enough time for having s*x with you, without asking if you feel alright. Imagine then, when being in intimacy everything ends when he's done and you don't matter. Imagine that a love letter seems like a dream far away from you. Imagine crying on bed, him knowing it and deciding to sleep because he doesn't want to handle with you anymore because you "get complicated", imagine being blamed of making him "look like the villain" when asking for help. Imagine seeing him, smiling and saying that he is the best thing of your life, but after he is gone, you just cry and wonder why does this feel so bad.
Why is love like this? I am with the love of my life and it's the first time someone makes me cry so much everyday. Am I overreacting? Please can someone reply? What am I doing wrong? I feel so broken...
@vgiem
Be yourself. Detach from him. Even if you love him so much, you are not going to do everything that ge says. That was the mistaken part. He saw it and recognized it. Such a Dick. He took advantage of your willingness to change and be the best gf you could be. In your case I wouldn't do anyone's favors without thinking twice. Be yourself and don't be afraid to fuck everything up
@vgiem
Don't have much experience with romance myself, but your bf seems pretty narcissistic to me. Your relationship together needs to revolve around him, to the point he makes you feel miserable and wanting his love and approval, but never giving it to you.
In my eyes love should make you feel awful the majority of the time, sure you'll face issues, but it sounds like you're miserable more than you're happy in this relationship.
I agree that all you should have to do is be yourself and there will be someone out there that will accept all of you. But you can't do that if you don't accept yourself.
I can't give you a black and white answer on what to do, but if your bf doesn't want to communicate like an adult, there isn't much you can do about it
