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So my unstable ass just moved around a bunch.. finally thought I was somewhere where I could get on my feet but it still a bunch of craziness... their are mice here and the person I'm living with doesnt care. Says getting rid of the mice is not an emergency..AND I CAN'T MOVE ANYWHERE ELSE..I'm so pissed..Im so tired of living with people and dealing with their craziness. I feel I am the only sane person in world. I wash my ass before I go to bed clean up after myself. Do what I'm supposed and get stuck with a person that likes living with mice..I'm so fed up..can't catch a break

Dear CE ,

its me again i'm writing to you though we had met on saturday i wonder how you're feeling today after learning you're not feeling well 🤒 for one week what's more me too . my 💔 i knew you've your wife / children to care & concern since i knew you i'm willing to go that extra mile , i also knew you won't feel the same way for how i feel for you .

🙏 apology for all these while , this is just one side of myself feeling for you .. idk where to rant my feelings but only here , i know some of them will judge me i don't care as they don't understand how i feel for you . i don't have any BAD intention to break your everything 🙏 may you've a speed recovery soon , pray in our lord Jesus name ....🙏

i love someone who doesnt love me and doesnt even deserve my love

i was bullied as a kid by my family and at school and i feel angry and sick to my stomach to think i have to deal with my faimly for the rest of my life, i am now financially dependent on them and we just moved out and i am very smart like really smart and i've been getting so terrible grades because i can't live with my mother she's the biggest misogynist and you have two daugthers and are yourself a woman!!! i hate that this is affecting my grades but i can't just shut it down and i have so terrible panic attacks when i am in any social situation and of course i can't live like that i used to bottle everything up but i dont want to do that again and i dont like talking to strangers or anyone about my problems because i should be able to use logic to get out of this but my fears are unreasonable and i obviously need help but making an appoinment will probably take a month and i don't have the time

I just want to cry. I hate this feeling when I binge eat and it's too much for me. I don't know what to do.

Well, I have been recently feeling very depressed and anxious. I hate my job but I have no choice but to work. I recently hurt my shoulder and that has just been a whole different story but adds to how bad I feel. I don't feel like I ever recharge. I have been applying for new jobs but nothing yet. I got into an argument with my husband the other day. I felt like I was having an anxiety attack and just got majorly overwhelmed. I couldn't stop crying. He started out trying to be comforting and supportive but I guess when I didn't magically feel better I could tell he was getting annoyed. So then I started to just shut off. He got increasingly annoyed and then I started to get annoyed because he started telling me that I'm feeling this way because I choose to. That I need to make the decision to be happy. That I should force it even if it means faking it until it is a habit. I genuinely feel even worse now. He then gets mad at me because I told him that I wasn't looking for answers right then. He storms off, leaves the house, and then doesn't come back for hours. Now he won't even talk to me. Granted I haven't talked to him either. I'm scared that I'll just feel even worse. I don't understand. Am I in the wrong? What do I do now? I feel like I'm broken and he doesn't want to deal with a broken wife.

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I'm trying to calm down so I can go to sleep, but people in my neighbourhood are making a lot of noise 😡🤯

I cannot sleep and I cannot relax. The weather is so depressing and it is affecting me. I can't accept that this awesome summer is far away now. It's past already. Seeing it with goggles. Ugh. Oh my universe help me feel better about the summer that went by. I had a great time. 😢😢😢 No more warm and hot weather

It's depressing. I feel alone. I couldn't live in a country with shitty weather. I'm glad I live here with a lot of sun most of the year. Anyways.

Ugh......

I just wanna achieve my goals. I can't relax. I just Want to relax. I will try breathing techniques I know they help.

All these thoughts are an illusion. Only that can make me relax and feel happy.

Get ready for a rant!

I had a crummy MRI on Monday because my doctor wants to check and see if I've now got MS lesions in my spine. I've had several MRIs in the past, but this one seemed to go badly as I felt like I was burning within minutes of the hour long scan starting. I was assured that they were aware the machine was going to heat up as the images were taken, and that I shouldn't worry because they were keeping track of it. That when it was too high, they would pause the imaging so the machine could cool down a little.

I'll give them this: they were attentive and checked in with me before and after every break. My MRIs always take a long time because they've got to do a normal scan and then a scan with contrast, so I normally just doze in the tube and listen to the muted noises the machine makes.

But when they pulled me out to inject the contrast, I apparently did a very bad thing and moved a little. I had been very good about staying perfectly still while getting the shit burned out of my back, and I had to do something to stop the muscles from cramping in my legs, so sue me!

And then, I got a lecture about how I clearly hadn't had enough water to drink before coming in because my veins were super tiny! I repeated for the third time since I arrived and was told I'd require contrast (though when I made the appointment a month ago they swore up and down that I wouldn't require it this time) that I did the best I could considering I have to travel for almost an hour by bus just to wait for my turn in the machine.

The contrast was given, the MRI started up again, and I got to feel the fire a little more which seemed to get worse when they were focusing on my lumbar for another ten or fifteen minutes. Then the imaging was completed, I groggily asked how everything looked, and they told me I clearly have a spine.

Insert Sarcastic "Yay!"