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I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Keep binge eating over and over. I hate this feeling and myself. It's hard and I don't know what to do.
Rant rant rant, is that ok?🙄 can I rant rant rant and rant some more rant?🙄
Oh boy, is it good to rant rant rant and rant some more and vent, rent and vent , vent and rant and gogogo go vent and rant and rant and vent and a good beat for bass guitar...vent and rant...
Tonight my mom (stepmom) told me to get my headphone out of my ear and all I said was I
I'm tired of being strong for everyone. I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not. I just want to live my life and be who I want to be without being judged or my mom wishing I was someone else. I just want to be allowed to be weak sometimes. To need a little help now and then. Classes are getting harder so grades go down and my mom gets mad so I'm sad and shut down and then nothing gets done. I hate having to put up with everything and I wish there was someone who actually cared if I felt sad that day. I want someone to comfort me and care for me and love me for who I am. I feel like my whole life went down the drain. Like I'm behind in life, but it keeps going and I can't catch up. I keep stumbling but no one cares to help me. Sometimes I just want to run away and leave it all behind, but isn't that giving up? I'm so confused about how I feel and if anyone cares and how I should act. I want it over. I want to be done.
i've really made a mess of my life. i hope i get some leeway under the weird circumstances. I'm genuinely concerned for my future. I feel terrible for how i treated somebody during all of this if it wasn't what I thought. Like it's not an affection thing I just feel really bad about it. What really happened? I just don't know how i ended up here. I do and I don't, it's both.
There is a boy I used to know. We were talking every single day for six years straight. The older we got, though, the more we flew apart. Lately he has stopped talking to me. And I hate it. I hate not being able to talk to him like a normal person anymore because my anxiety just gets to me. Whenever I see I want to cry and I hate it. And I just want to be with him and love him. I hate that I love him, but i just can't stop wanting to be close to him. I want to show him that I want to spend forever with him but I can't and I feel like I can't do anything without him. I feel like I can't Breathe. I cant eat. I can't move. I've been getting skinnier and more thoughts about self harm or suicide but I avoid them because I know its bad. Without him I feel like I should just leave. And maybe I should because nobody else really talks/talked to me. I hope he will see me soon. His name will forever be Charles in my heart.
I'm upset now because when I just logged in to complete the my daily activity, I noticed that I had been put back on Day 1. I've been logging in everyday since July!
@integrityblues
That happened to me got to 363 days and I went back to 0 . I was gutted
@lazyKatz
Yeah, it sucks. But I guess the badge or thing I could have won isn't that important after all.
@integrityblues
To me it felt more of a personal achievement, one that I never did manage to reach. The badge was secondary
@lazyKatz
I get it. It hit me pretty hard then drove me to try and figure out someone to complain to about the error. I'd been pretty excited that I'd managed to keep up with something for so long in spite of the depression. Then I had to let it go because I can't change it.
I'm breaking and no one knows. I put a smile on for everyone even though its getting harder everyday. I can't do it anymore and I don't know how to fix it. Everyone says that it gets worse before it gets better but it doesn't. I get small moments where things start to look up before it all disappears and I'm spiraling again. I'm breaking and I don't know what to do anymore.
Basically I'm in an emotionally abusive and toxic relationship that I have absolutely ZERO clue how to get out of. Like I know what to do, but the act of doing it is MUCH more difficult than and complex than everything I've been reading. I can't just fill the void with friends and family. I have none. I have no money to move out. I have no transportation to work if I leave him. I have NOTHING. Which is probably what he wanted all along. He denies everything, every time I try to confront him, to make this better and fix it. He denies his actions and his attitude and says I'm crazy. So now I'm starting to feel actually crazy and too emotional. It's been like this for 2 years now. Almost 3. Idk what to do and how to do it.
@atl13 Keep in mind that I've never been in an abusive relationship. But I've heard some advice on how to get out.
A Ted Talk I listened to said that she told everyone about her situation that she felts safe telling. Go to neighbors, random people you meet at the store, people at your job. She also said that a big part of abuse is intentionally isolating the person being abused. You're probably right that he's doing this on purpose.
Another idea... would it help to write down things after they happen? In a journal or something? That way if he starts denying things and making you feel like you're crazy, you can read them and know that they actually happened.
I'm sorry you're in this situation. I hope you can find things that help soon.