beyond repair

I used to love many things: friends, family, animals, and even the littlest things. I remember the joy I felt being around others I loved, but now I dont even recognize myself.

I feel empty even with people around me. Whether it be my parents or siblings. I tried so hard to love and I put the thought of having a relationship on a pedestal because I thought maybe it will fill an unknown void that wont go away. The same with animals, i used to think they would help save me but even that failed. Even after countless failures, I never gave up on love, I used to think I had a soulmate out there waiting for me and I even daydreamed how my future would look but I realized something like that only exist in a dream. Nowadays, I feel agitated by everything and I tend to avoid people and stay in my room because even talking annoys me.
I dont know whats wrong with me.