i feel weird
i dont even know how to describe it lately i have either two moods. im either super super down and sad and hopeless or i feel just strange?? it's like im not sad but im definitely not happy. it's a particularly bad feeling i'd say. and things that usually made me super happy are just like meh. idk what im feeling its really weird i dont like it
@amusingSail8830
If you're willing I'd listen to you talk about it. Sounds similar to something I have, but I could be wrong. Didn't wanna assume, though.
Hope you can feel content once again, either way.
@0820170719105 i feel the same.
im willing to talk. i feel this too.
@lex112
Okay. Would you like to start it off?
I'm okay if you want to vent or go into detail as well.
@0820170719105 i feel lonely even when i am surrounded by people who love me
@lex112
Oh. I've been there before, too, when I used to have friends.
Do you want to go on?
@0820170719105 it is my first year in college and i made amazing friends yet feel like the odd one out. i feel different in a way. i get anxiety trying to insert myself into things they life. i avoid the things i like to do just to fit in. right now only my boyfriend understands me
@lex112
Oh wow I really relate to that...
Could I ask if this is the first time you've ever experienced this?
Asking because some things in the past could shape these feelings/behaviors.
@0820170719105 hello. sorry i am so late in replying. it has been a long two days and ive spent them with my boyfriend who seems to be my only true and real support system. yes in the past i have had this problem.
@lex112
Life happens, it's reasonable. Especially since you don't have a strong support system, naturally it takes even longer to get things done.
In my experience, I've also had this ongoing problem since way back. Not to assume it's the same, though. Before going in too deep are you fine with this being in forum format or would you prefer pming?
@lex112
If I might ask- how is he supporting you? I'm just curious what sort of needs you're feeling and how he's fulfilling them. For example is he giving you space? Or just a good listener? Etc.
@amusingSail8830
you might be disassociating. It is a coping mechanism. You're probably depressed and your brain is trying to cope. ...
@amusingSail8830
i felt like that last week when I ran out of my meds. I went to see a psychiatrist and they amended my original diagnosis of major depression to the dual diagnosis of bipolar AND depressed. They said looking from their perspective I was emotionally and energetically all over the place: my highs were sky-high, and my lows were the same as yours. When I felt low I couldnt stop thinking and lashing out. Thankfully the meds have me back on track but I feel flat.
are you currently taking anything to help with your current state and/or speaking to a healthcare professional?
