i feel weird
i dont even know how to describe it lately i have either two moods. im either super super down and sad and hopeless or i feel just strange?? it's like im not sad but im definitely not happy. it's a particularly bad feeling i'd say. and things that usually made me super happy are just like meh. idk what im feeling its really weird i dont like it
@amusingSail8830
If you're willing I'd listen to you talk about it. Sounds similar to something I have, but I could be wrong. Didn't wanna assume, though.
Hope you can feel content once again, either way.
@0820170719105 i feel the same.
im willing to talk. i feel this too.
@lex112
Okay. Would you like to start it off?
I'm okay if you want to vent or go into detail as well.
@0820170719105 i feel lonely even when i am surrounded by people who love me
@lex112
Oh. I've been there before, too, when I used to have friends.
Do you want to go on?
@0820170719105 it is my first year in college and i made amazing friends yet feel like the odd one out. i feel different in a way. i get anxiety trying to insert myself into things they life. i avoid the things i like to do just to fit in. right now only my boyfriend understands me
@lex112
Oh wow I really relate to that...
Could I ask if this is the first time you've ever experienced this?
Asking because some things in the past could shape these feelings/behaviors.
@0820170719105 hello. sorry i am so late in replying. it has been a long two days and ive spent them with my boyfriend who seems to be my only true and real support system. yes in the past i have had this problem.
@amusingSail8830
you might be disassociating. It is a coping mechanism. You're probably depressed and your brain is trying to cope. ...
@amusingSail8830
i felt like that last week when I ran out of my meds. I went to see a psychiatrist and they amended my original diagnosis of major depression to the dual diagnosis of bipolar AND depressed. They said looking from their perspective I was emotionally and energetically all over the place: my highs were sky-high, and my lows were the same as yours. When I felt low I couldnt stop thinking and lashing out. Thankfully the meds have me back on track but I feel flat.
are you currently taking anything to help with your current state and/or speaking to a healthcare professional?