life

Well... i'm doing this because i need to talk to someone...but right now i feel like that's impossible.
I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, OCD, and plenty of other stuff. I've done self harm too.I'm not good at talking and i stopped visiting my therapist.

i was doing well for a while... but it's like a rollercoaster... some days are okey..and others i wish for death.

Now I feel so lonely.My best friend, who was helping me through all of this, he hates me now, barely talks to me...and when he does he's rude, all of this hurts me. I made a mistake and now he's mad at me. I lost him and it's my fault. Ihate my self for it.

I don't have friends anymore.

I'm in med school. And it has been killing me, im a failure, my grades are the worst.

It's like looking at a car crash in slow motion. That's how i feel my life right now.

I cry myself to sleep every night... and every night i pray and i wish to never wake up again. The pain i feel every morning when i see the sunrise, i just can't do it anymore.

I don't know how i'm still holding on.