lost time
i'm so angry and sad about the years i've lost to depression, all the experiences and life i've f*** up and missed out on, how far from where i want to be i am now in so many ways. and i have no idea how to cope with this anger, what to do with it. i just wish so f*** much to be able to redo everything again, knowing what i know now. i don't want to just have to carry on, do the things i didn't do then now. because it's so hard. and the older i get the harder a lot of those things become.
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You can't rewrite the past, I know it's hard, and you desperately wish to return to the simpler times, but the past cannot be changed. However, you can choose what to do from now on, that's your choice, you can either choose to be angry, or cease the emotion and move forward with your life. Take care.
That self from the past, that self which made all the mistakes, is not the current self. Yes, the previous self made mistakes, but it did the very best that it could, given the events and circumstances, family life and social issues, that it had to deal with it. Look back at that self and, even if you cannot yet forgive it, see that it deserves at least a bit of sympathy and love.
As @InnocenceKuchiki said, you can't rewrite the past. But you can make the future the best possible. And that bright future is a better future because of what you learned from the past.
