nothing is intense enough
nothing seems enough to jostle me back into being a real human being. ive been numb plenty times before(really almost constantly) but this is too much. nothing i do seems to work. im too anxious to meet new people and i feel like im not enough for the people i already know. they dont want to hear about how depressed i am. i crave an experience that brings me back to life. im just so BORED. im scared to have a one on one chat with people but i might get there one day. im so trapped and i dont know what to do.
@bubbleOrange5025
I completely relate. What Ive done is just try to force myself, (even if only a little) to do something new, or something I dont do a lot. Like a craft or something. Even if I only start on it and dont finish it, even if I only research it but dont actually begin it, it seems to help me.
For me its like, I almost feel as though I wanna break out a routine or start a new one. Do it, try it, start a new one, break out of the old one. Rearange your bedroom (even if it needs cleaning first, just shove that stuff to the side). Try anything that even remotely interests you.
Hope this helps <3
@bubbleOrange5025 yes, people who care about you grow old with your whining even if they don't tell you so...
You have three options:
- you find new victims to complain about your problems
- you invent new problems for your existing friends to take so you buy time
- or the most honest one, you just blend with your friends and instead of complaining you listen to their problems too and you hang out and get along...how about that?
@DonneMoi are you okay?
@bubbleOrange5025 yes, I am always ok, though "ok" is perimee...old, outdated, noone says ok anymore.
@DonneMoi ? always? that doesnt seem realistic but if you ever find that youre not okay, thats kind of what this place is for. theres always someone out there to listen and try to help.
@bubbleOrange5025 i know bubble...😔😔😔
@bubbleOrange5025i feel the same, my friends say they dont know what else they can do so they kinda leave alone at home, im going crazy because no matter how much i try nothing brings me enough joy, and i feel better in my room, but keep trying diferent things, im learning how to play bass, if you dont then its really game over, thats the har part, you have to keep insisting....