Coming home and feeling alone
I just moved back home after living in Europe for 4 months.. while I was there me and my partner of 5 years broke up. Coming home I just feel very out of place and like I don’t belong, I have been finding it hard to do anything because nothing makes me feel happy. I keep trying to heal but I feel like I’m regressing rather than progressing.. I know it’s not linear but I feel like I’m not in control of my life anymore. I never felt like I depended on my partner but I now know I do rely on others for my happiness.. I just needed to vent because I feel that it was just right person wrong timing. I’m just trying to be better for myself.
@fallinglilo
Hello there
Being away for 4 months and goin through such a drastic change can totally affect us. I totally get why you would be feeling out of place, depressed, and just out of it lately. That is so so understandable, long term relationships are really tricky, they can be the best thing or the worst thing. It makes sense why youre going through this heartbreak, after loving someone, being with someone, caring for someone for so long, its hard to let go. It really is. As humans that is really understandable, we do rely on others for support, happiness, and just when we need to get away. That's healthy to a certain point. I cant imagine feeling like it was the right person at the wrong time on top of all this. I hear your pain, you do really want to heal, but something is holding you back, you get the burst of motivation but the next thing you know, you're hurting again. My best suggestion would be to let yourself heal, to wait it out, to let your emotions and feelings settle themselves, you dont want to rush it. You're going through such a rough breakup after being together for many years, the pain really must feel unbearable. Deep breaths, youll get through this. "sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I am more then rooting for you and i hope youre able to come to peace with this soon *tight hugs if comfortable* you got this!! Thank you so much for sharing! Please do keep in mind, if you do need live support there are so many listeners! We're here for you and you most certainly arent alone. <33
xx Dahlia
