Daily operations

It’s tough some days. I wake up and try to be happy but can’t seem to be there. I work myself in circles trying to answer my own questions, but it seems my tires prefer to be bald. I’m told I have been a lot of things: a great friend, a good son, a good fiancé, but when I feel the actual energy, I know people aren’t 100% honest with their intentions. Im in a position where everyone will use anything you say against you, a perverted twist of it.. I think I have a problem with identity, who I am, who I am to people who say they’re close to me… most of the time I’m just being told how to feel, rather them asking how I am. I like to say I’ve helped so many people with their situations, but I think I’m just trying to avoid my own…. I know many of you might feel similar to this, maybe in a way.. and this all may seem vague with little information, but I hope you don’t feel so alone knowing there are those who think the same way, and that’s not wrong at all. Keep pushing through. Make mistakes and learn from them, do more things you never thought you could do…. And more importantly be proud of everything you do and never forget to smile in the mirror… it’s helped me overcome the worst obstacles in my past. Even if the road ahead still isn’t smooth, I know if I keep traveling, I’ll be happy again with what I’ve been given…