I hate myself, i hate my life, i feel lonely

My heart got broken 2 years back, i somehow got up somehow i was back on track but now again i am back to the same point i feel hurt i feel lonely and this time it is worse than last time i feel so hurt i am in pain and no one is there to help me i get that no one can help me in the way i think help is required. It's so painful i want them back but i know that's something i should not say it should happen on it's own, no one is here to hold me no one to help me no one can help the way i want and i have all these chains on me to restrict me from doing something. What's the point of life if all i have to suffer every time. People give advice do this do that, it worked out for some time but in truth it was just temporary. Everything is bad i don't even like this planet at this point what's good about it people don't care about you...you have responsibilities so you can't quit anytime... i hate this i don't want my family to be sad man i really don't want them to be sad seeing me like this i hurts too much. I sometimes wish if i had a dependable big brother i could have left him everything without worrying about anything. Is this even living i don't even like the way i live... i hate it...