I keep making bad decisions
Over the last few years I feel like every day I just keep making the worst and most horrible decisions. I’m drinking & making a fool of myself, I’m putting myself in situations I know won’t have good outcomes, I’m so deeply disappointed in myself with this last month of just how far my bad decisions have gone and I just feel so hopeless and alone. It’s just really hard and I don’t know how to fix myself or be better or be good enough or be normal.
Stop for a moment and breathe. If you've made bad decisions, it doesn't mean that all is lost and you can't find your way back. We all make bad decisions at some point in our life, and that's okay. There is nothing wrong with us, we are here to learn from mistakes. You say you don't know how to be normal, but you already are. You say you're not good enough, but you already are. Stop blaming yourself and instead try to look back wisely, learn a lesson from it and move forward better than you ever have. Stop thinking all those negative things about yourself. And above all, go back to taking care of yourself, your body and your mind. Be kind to yourself. Hope things can get better for you soon.