I m looking for suggestions
Hi, i m 24 years old, male. Been living by myself in a different country for over 4 years.
Since the pandemic starts, i m seeing the reality of how alone i am. People who were close to me or were getting close to me, i always find a way to push them away because i feeling like i don't deserve them or at one point they will leave me after knowing me.
and now i m at that stage where i feel like i have no one to talk to (even if i have close friends and family but the thought that they won't understand me and will start making distance with me because i m being negative/depressed).
so here i m, on this app/website. I m tired of being like this and i wanna improve and get better. i wanna overcome this state of mine.
(P.S = No no, i didn't had or have any suicidal thoughts)
Maybe try focus on trusting them first
How? I m just afraid! If i trust them and let them in. They will judge and leave
@Bananas1996
@honestfriend1962 Hii
@honestfriend1962 Hii
@Bananas1996
Dear Banana , I get it, I am suffering too, no trust in ppl. I have ptsd from someone doing a bad thing to me. I feel that pain too. It's rough. I started therapy and got on this app and it's helping. I still have a long way to go and I only have my sister I can trust. It takes time to build trust alot of time. Hoping this app helps you. They have therapists here too. Just wanted to say hi, and let you know your not suffering alone even though it feels like it.
@amiableBlackberry92 Thank you for sharing. Really really appreciate it and Hii 
Just wanted to say I love your profile picture. I go on the chat groups on here that really helps me in lots of ways. Just check the calendar to see if there is anything your interested in then join the chat room.
life is difficult I find at the moment due to lockdown for me and it has created family issues too for me. So I understand about having no one close to talk to . I have my friends but it's difficult to get support or give support via telephone. I am learning to become a friend for myself , which I never have before. Hope things get better with you.
Just wanted to say hi. Trusting people has been hard for me for years. Every time I do, someone just betrays or breaks it. I want to improve too, but I get how difficult it is.
