I'm so lonely.......
Hello everyone
I just want to get this off my chest. I am so lonely. I could be in an MMO and surrounded by people and I could feel totally and completely alone. I have no friends to speak off. Hell, I don't even why I have a facebook account with 100 "friends" on it. Nobody talks to me and the only people that do want to talk to me are people who want to talk about frivalious nonsense like, what they saw on Netflix, what did Trump do wrong today, or what Lady Gaga wore that was "supposedly" offenseive. If people actually got to know me, they would realize that these things do not concern me. What concerns is what concerns a man who is a idol to me and the man I look up to: Tyler Durden. What concerns me and him is the media and advertising has the rest of the world working at jobs they hate, to buy crap they dont need, to impress people they don't like. I am totally alone in this world. I just play MMOs not for the socialization. I just play to destroy something beautiful so I can make it just as ugly as I am. I simply have to idea how to reach out to somebody. I just want to find somebody who understand what it is like to be an outcast their entire life and never fit in anywhere.
If I could paint a picture of the inside of my soul, it would Hueco Mundo from the anime Bleach. (If you dont know what that is, look it up on google, you'll find information about it, trust me.)
Leaving it here for all to see.......
Hello there DisturbedAngel.
I just want to point out, that hey, loneliness is a sign that at least you are feeling *something.*
In our hyper-connected world, its so easy to get depressed and disillusioned. Because it *looks* like we are not alone, but finding people to actually be genuine to and care about? Its hard. It seems that people care primarily about themselves and their ‘frivolous nonsense, and I guess we either got to give up, or learn to live with it.
I havent watched Bleach, but I know what you are talking about. Your soul might feel as empty as that desert, but there's many others who feel the same way as you do. You aren't alone, and there are people who care. For every despicable thing about the world, there's something good to compensate for it. It can just be difficult to realize sometimes.
I wish you the best of luck. You can pm me if you want.