Lonely

I'm Jeffrey a 52-year old husband and father to a 9-year old son and a (soon to be) 14-year old daughter. If you've read any of my soap box stories , you'll know I abused alcohol and prior to that opiates. It's been about 15 years since I've any non Rx medicine. (I don't even have caffeine regularly, although I do occasionally.)

I worked in Manhattan when September 11th happened. Although I'm about 40 minutes by train, I haven't been back since.

I'm only now not under a non-disclosure agreement and can say that I worked a few summers (I was teaching at the time) in an office In Ft. Bragg in Maryland.

My wife is addicted to the internet and practically ignores our children. It's easy to think, "just leave", but here in the US, the courts would favor the children's mother as far as custody goes. I also came very close to being treated as an in-patient after September 11th. I saw a psychiatrist for two 1-hour sessions each week for almost five years.

Now to the fun part. I broke my wrist in my dominant hand and won't be able to use it for three to six months. I am a writer by vocation. I've published a tiny bit, but that's not really the point. I've written every single day for over 35 years. This post has taken about 45 minutes so far. Yes. There is speech to text, but that doesn't offer any privacy. (Someone always seems to be around.)

I'm 52, with kids, so I don't expect 'movie-like' sex scenes, but it's not at all about sex -- rather intimacy. I've come close to taking out a CraigsList ad… but I wouldn't do anything even similar to cheating: regardless of any "reason".

I'm just venting. I can't even do that properly.