Lonely and scared
I feel so lonely. I had one friend of many years, but she turned out to be toxic, and I know I'm better severing that relationship, but then I will have no one. I want to reach out to other people, but I'm also aware that I sound very desperate right now. My relationship with my parents is also unhealthy, and the deadline I set for myself for finally moving out is looming closer, but instead of making me excited like it did my entire life, now I'm scared, very scared. I also feel like a loser for moving out when I'm 27. I feel like I have no one. I have a steady job, but I know that I will have to quit it in few years, and I'm already worried what then, time passes so fast. My therapist said that we are close to wrapping up the therapy and I don't feel ready. I have constant health problems for past month and a half and I have hard time imagining I will be ever okay again. I'm scared and lonely it's just so hard to see any hope right now.
Dear friend, These are our similarities: We're both old We are both planning on moving out (Im 30 though) I have friends but for some reason I refuse to tell anyone else about my mental health. I had a breakdown last night and cried in my room. I was so close to calling a friend and confiding about what Im going through but decided against it. I have a steady job as well. The difference though is that I dont have a therapist. I havent really reached out to a mental health professional regarding my situation. Ive been contemplating about it because I feel like Im drowning already. Im scared and lonely too and I feel trapped and hopeless. What I really, really want right now is a hug from someone im comfortable with, but I cant get that. I have nothing to offer you but a virtual yet tight and sincere hug. I really wish I can give you a hug right now. I guess Im just projecting.