Tired
I am so tired of this. I am so tired of asking for compassion and being told why I can’t have it. I am so tired of being to be heard and being told that it isn’t possible. I am so tired of people telling me lies just to say what they think I want to hear. I am so tired of being shown I am NEVER worth the truth.
I am so tired of showing people me and just giving them a blueprint of how to hurt me. I am so tired of asking for better and being told I will NEVER be worth that. I am tired. I can’t do it anymore. My self worth is gone thanks to people that claim to care for me the most. I can not put myself through this day after day.
I try to be there for them and all they hear is what they want from me. My words are MEANINGLESS. No matter what I say they see what they want. I try to show kindness and all they see from me is pain. I am done trying to find things that don’t exist.
@SaturnsOwn. Hey, my name is Joy. If you ever want to talk about this to someone personally, message me anytime. I feel your pain. Don't feel like you have to face it alone. I'm here for you! Send me a message. :)
@joyousHug4511
I am alone and it is VERY clear I always will be.
No you won't. Let's be positive and hope the space will be filled in no time.
@friendlyApricot9869
Hope is a damn lie and please tell me what there is to be positive about. Because I would love to shatter that illusion.
@SaturnsOwn, Don't say that. Everything will be okay. Let's talk about it!
@joyousHug4511
Nothing is ever ok. Nothing ever will be. So please don't tell me how to feel.
I really don't know what you are passing through right now but we can discuss this nicely. I know its not easy to deal with but you're being alive still means there is hope for whatever it is. I feel tired and frustrated too.. Well nevermind.
@friendlyApricot9869
I am willing to bet any amount of money you want you haven't felt that way for 37 years. Passing through. No. I am here to stay.
There are things you cannot control. You can scream, cry, lament but remember your life is a gift and you must take care of it before the time runs out. Ugly moments don't last forever, changes that are for good is bound to happen. It might take you time to heal but you will eventually heal. I love good music, isn't there anything you love to do?
@friendlyApricot9869
I am tired of this. Have fun believing in the lie.
It's fine