Tired
I'm at the point of being over life. No, I don't want to die. I just want to be happy.
My life has never been a happy one. Since I had interaction with other people, I have been bullied mercilessly. I spent my developing years alone and made to feel worthless. I'm an adult now and it has had an effect my whole life. I never had the opportunity to develop social skills, i don't trust people and I hate myself.
I feel worthless because that's how I was made to feel for the first 17 years of my life.
My life is just work, gym, sleep and repeat.
I spend all of my time alone and have no friends. I don't have any interests to get me out and about. I spend my days inside with food and TV.
I feel like there is no way out of this darkness and I am destined to be that sad lonely woman who grows old and alone with her cats.
I just wanted a place to vent my feelings
@optimisticPomegranate708
Hey there. I know how you feel. I can always relate to you guys who are going through a really lonely life. Not the short term phase kind of thing but the kind of lonely that you have been deeling with most of your life kind of thing.
Like you i feel exactly the same. Deeling with a serious illness does not make it any better. I hope you don't mind me venting myself. I'm sick and tired of being ill. When will this nightmare ever going to end for me? I wish i could just disappear if all i am ment to feel is pain.
It's hard enough deeling with loneliness on your own, but when other things in your life gets bad like me with my illness, it's just too much. I feel like i'm wasting my life away. I should be spending my young days (in my 30s already) working at least to get some money and if lucky keep some but even that i can't do.
Words can describe how awful a frustrating i feel inside. 
@Kate30
Honestly speaking i'm even sick and tired of venting it out 
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