i’m really trying
I’m really trying to want to be here. I’m stuck and i don’t know how to get out. i want to do it but it will make my mom sad. it’s selfish, i know but i just don’t wanna feel like this anymore. it’s just i’ve had this feeling for 9 years and i’m soooo over it. i want to be naturally happy. i don’t want to have to pretend anymore. i love my family and boyfriend but the only person who i talk to everyday is my mom. i don’t really have friends anymore. i feel so boring. i feel like i’m not moving forward. i was told i don’t have much of a personality by my boyfriends mom and i tend to believe everything anyone says about me. i try not to care but it’s hard when you hate who you have become. i don’t know. i’m just tired.
@wittyAcai223 Happiness is something you can find. We’re not born knowing how to find it. So don’t give up. Your boyfriends mom doesn’t sound like the nicest person in the world. I wouldn’t take her opinions to heart. Don’t think that you’re a boring person - you’re not. You’re struggling with life. It can be hard to figure out. This book might help
You Can Be Happy No Mater What by Richard Carlson
We all get so, so tired sometimes. Sending strength to try again. Why? Because you already know that this is the best option. You don't want to hurt others.
So what do you do to care for yourself? Recognize that what you do matters and that every time you get a few minutes of happiness that matters. You may have been doing it for 9 years, but you have learned things about yourself. Those things do help.
What kind of care are you getting from medical professionals right now? @wittyAcai223
