vent

I am lonely. I have no friends and I cannot make one due to severe anxiety and im not funny or cool enough to be of any interest to someone. I never get out the house I cant remember the last time I've even went to a store I get all my stuff online. I used to have online friends but lately I always feel excluded in the group because theres a trio in our 5 person friendgroup but the other person whos also excluded has friends in real life so its different. At the end of the day im lonely and not the favorite person of anyone in this world. And im also seriously anxious about the racism i will feel if i step outside. If that wasnt a problem in the country i live in, i would at least try but i cant handle another racially targeted harassment in public again i just cant do it.