Does anyone else...

feel sometimes like it's not real?

I get reasonably regular periods of being okay. Actual okayness, as opposed to numbness or the weird unsettling calm I get sometimes. Times where I can message friends, interact with others in person, and go to meetings fine. I'm on a waiting list to see a psychologist and sometimes I think maybe it should be for someone who needs it more...

Also, I'm currently feeling okay, but I still can't get out of bed. But I feel okay? Argh why? I'm so confused and tired.