Feeling stuck and unsure of what to do
Hey, I'm a little new to this app but I don't have anyone else to ask this question about that wouldn't freak out at me or blame me or say I'm not trying.
I feel extremely stuck right now and I don't know how to proceed. I've been pretending like I'm not feeling depressed around my boyfriend so that he won't worry about me, and I don't want to upset him either. I love how happy he gets when I tell him I'm happy, even if sometimes I'm not actually happy, and I don't want him to feel sad. Frankly I'm scared he might leave me if I tell the truth.
I've been behind in my school work (first year of university) and I'm struggling to pass this term because I'm just way too stressed out even though my courses are so easy. Everything is feeling like it's piling up and I can't handle it anymore. Not only that, but I'm two months behind on paying my tuition because I can't afford to pay the two grand I owe considering I work 3 times a week for 4 hours each time making minimum wage and I get $20 tips every 6 work days. I make at most $130 a pay cheque and none of it adds up to what I need. I can't get another job because I lack the experience and haven't worked at my current one long enough for it to matter to most places, and my full time job is only in the summers.
Everything feels like it's in slow motion and falling apart. My friends don't talk to me anymore ever since I got into a relationship. I feel so stupid because I'm bad at school and I'm in a financial crisis. How do I go on?
@UnexpectedBear
I would say that you need to be honest. That will simplify your life enormously.
Start with the college. You need to tell them before they find out. Go to your course leader and lay it all out to them. You won't be the first. But at your time of life this is the most important step.
Keep in touch.