How do i survive

I got bullied a lot in highschool and people spread rumors about me all over my city, kids and adults, people i dont know make fun of me and gotten to the point where i havent left my house in 4 months and do school online. I lost all my friends and have no one to talk to but myself, Im not close with family. I have really bad lows and i just have cry it out in my room every night. But my question is how do i become comfortable to go through life all alone. And please dont say become youre own best friend because thats great and all but we as humans desire human connections and i dont have that.