If you didn't have depression, what would you do?!

I feel like I would get more done and relationships would run a bit smoother.

I would be able to live life. To be able to work and support myself, to be able to get into a relationship, to be able to make music. To move forward.

I don't know what I would do without depression, it's been a part of me for so long that I'm not share where its influence ends. But I would like to think I'd be more relaxed, stable, and able to live in the moment. I don't have many friends, but the few that I have formed over mutual experiences with depression, without my depression I'm not sure I'd have met them. So in a sense, no matter how toxic and debilitating depression has been for me, I'm also scared to give it up. I'm not sure I could handle being happy or relaxed all the time. There's a familiar "comfort" in having depression, you know what to expect from your mood more often than not. I'd be a much different person without my depression, and I'm not sure I'd be following the same path without it, so I honestly have no idea what I'd do without it.

Get a job.

I would be asleep instead of crying. I would learn to let things go. I wouldn't let mistakes define me as a failure.

I would write a book.

I would have owned my hair salon by now, had a career, enjoyed my pregnancy, wouldnt br scared of it, and was more social