No longer wish to interact with the world.
The person I’ve become is far less in every sense than I intended to become because of several things. Mostly familial betrayal and I do not wish to interact with the world or reality anymore. I’m 22, I’ve got no money, I sleep on my mothers couch I no longer have aspirations, no one cares for me, I am just a burden. I tried to end my own life 4 years ago, but I failed. Since that decision I have felt like a ghost, but it was feeling like a ghost that led me to choose death. I don’t want to be here, I don’t think I am supposed to be here. I am not well, things aren’t right. I do not know what to do. I feel I have no soul. No desire, it’s just awkward that I’m alive.
I feel you. I hope you find purpose very soon because that sounds like a dangerous path. Lots of things that we don't choose but that determine lots of factors in our life can definitely bring us down to that point but try not to feel hopeless! Maybe explore some of your interests more and they will lead to you finding a talent that you didn't know you had, anything to regain your purpose ! Everyone has one. It might be very tough now but just like myself, you're very young. We're still trying to figure things out and probably will be for a while. Please do your best to stay strong, talking to people definitely helps a lot, and remember you're not alone ❤
I have no interests. I am alone. No reason to be here. I just perpetuate my suffering by keeping myself alive.
