Stuck in a black hole..
Hi,
These past couple of days have been a bit hard for me to say the least. I feel like I am ruinning things and things just aren't going like they are supposed to and I have no idea who else to turn to. I'm currently job less, I failed a certification class and I just feel like a complete loser and a failure. I talk to my significant other about it sometimes, but it seems like things just go in one ear and out the other or they seem uninterested. I also feel as thought I am constantly dragging them down with my emotions and I'm starting to close myself off again. I feel like I am runing my relationship and I will be the cause of it ending, just because i can't pick myself up. I just don't know what to do now a days and I find myself not sleeping as well as not eating as much as i should be and sometimes starving myself for a couple of hours or even nights sometimes. Things are just so rough right now with job hunting and finding a way to pay for school, i just feel like I am losing myself.
@ReservedPeach98 I'm sorry to hear that! 
This struggle seems really frustrating and hard to cope. I can reassure you that even if this hardship takes weeks, months, perhaps even a year or two - you'll find the light and positivity again. It will be hard, but I know that you'll able to push through it. May I suggest connecting to a listener and completing a 1-on-1 chat with them? If you want, so I can better understand and attempt to help you, you may message me and I'll get back to you as soon as I can? 
@EnchxntedRose
Thanks you being here rose , and for your support
@EnchxntedRose
I'm sorry for replying so late. I've just been lacking much motivation to go and reach out for help, but now it's just getting hard to handle.
Given to your situation really you are through hard time ,I m sorry , maybe all those things can trigger depression,
Your failure in something don't define you , you are not loser , and th a hard time 'll pass , all of us experienced something similar and things got better after whirl , so don't give up you can change that
@delightfulUnicorn38
it just feels like this going to last forever. I feel so stuck it's unbearable.
@ReservedPeach98
Hi, it sounds like your going through a very hard time. The cause seems to be getting a job to pay for school. Finding a job is hard however not impossible. Keep applying to various ones - J.K Rowling applied to over 12 publishers who all rejected her but she did not give up. Today, she is a famous writer. I hope this inspires you to see that anything is possible. Perhaps, seeking professional help might help you otherwise even a 1 to 1 with listeners on here. Keep pushing through like you have and you'll soon be over this bad phase. Best of Luck.