coping mechanisms - I really need help..

Hey there everyone. I suffer from depression for a long time, it has its ups and downs obviously. But lately I am really depressed...

Is mostly my family.. the environment is so fricking toxic... everyone is angry and bitter.. I try everyday to be positive and fight this but lately is impossible...

Getting out of bed is like a miracle..

I also can't talk about my feelings since my family are too busy exploding about their own, and my boyfriend is also done with my negativity (but him I understand)

Due to this I just closed up. I just listen to the screams and monologues of my family members but is like.. I'm not listening.. I'm so miserable I don't care anymore. I'm so used to pay for their negativity...

Recently I just shut it. I stopped talking about bad feelings and keep them all inside but I feel like I'm a ticking bomb and I'll explode soon...

With this said I want to ask how do you guys manage? How do you manage all these feelings? How do you deal with negativity? And what do you do to fight depression?

I know exercise helps but leaving the house lately is basically impossible, in fact right now the only thing I want to do is to lay in bed and silently cry...

I'm looking forward to hear you guys answers.