Help
Hey guys my name is Taron and for the past days well the past months have been shit for me, but I’m just gonna talk about what’s bothering me know. I feel like no one is listening to me and that is maybe because I don’t tell them and put a smile to hide my pain, most of the time I try to forget about the pain and shove it down like it’s nothing. I feel like my life is going nowhere right now I’m 16 and I have no job, no license, no friends, nobody it’s just me mom and sister and they barely talk to me or i could barely talk to them. I just feel something different with me, I used to take a shower every two days but lately I haven’t the last time I took a shower was like five days and i smell horrible I used to care but now I don’t, me and my ex well that’s a story for a different time because it is a long one I just need some one to talk to. I’m not suicidal I don’t want my life to end at all I just want to get better so I can be the best version of myself. Thank You
I don't have many words, but, Your existence matters. A lot.
concealing your feelings, and keeping everything kept into yourself is not worth it, trust me lol. maybe its out of insecurity of you not wanting to feel burdening, or it could possibly be because you feel like it should be obvious what your current mental state is when others view you. sometimes it is, sometimes it isnt - but like you said you’ve put on this facade to make it seem like you’re okay when you’re not and..... thats okay. its okay to not be okay. most of us dread the feeling of misery, or feeling sad/worthless in the moment but unfortunately sometimes its mandatory to feel it. i’ve noticed you said you don’t have much going on for yourself at the age of sixteen, but SIXTEEN isn’t even TWO DECADES. though me just saying that to comfort you might not have much impact, so if you feel like you need to do more and you have to do better, gradually push yourself to do what you need. but while considering all the things you ‘need’ to do, also think of some of the things you WANT to do. and i know what its like to not care about yourself :/ it’s uncontrollable a lot. its hard. im not gonna say its not. you just have to hold onto that glimmer of hope, and assure yourself you can, and will do better for yourself. it might not click for you the first day, nor the second, nor the third. but you have to keep trying and try to find yourself again... im glad you’re not suicidal and have some sort of mental stability to realize that you do have potential to feel yourself again, thats really important and something you should remind yourself. i hope things get better for you taron.
