I don't know anymore what to do..
Hey people.. I know my post will someday be lost amongst other posts, but I am posting this because I think I need to.
Depression is very bad recently, and my exams are coming up tomorrow. I am very anxious about how it will go, and cause if depression and my procrastination I don't know if I studied well, I am not kind of procrastinating, nor am I feeling lazy, I am feeling sad and depressed.. Angry about everything and hating myself and life. I have been feeling very depressed and anxious, pressure as gotten on and family problems..
My depression is very bad, I am on the verge of breaking I think but I am trying to stay strong.. I am feeling irritated with all this and I hate intrusive thoughts.. I want them gone they make me irritated and I don't want them. My personal problems and intrusive thoughts are literally the reason for my depression.
I am very sad and feeling broken.. I don't know anymore what to do and I am feeling I am worthless and hopeless.. I am done with all this.
Please depression..i don't want you nor you too anxiety. Please go away and don't ever come back intrusive thoughts and all the ***..i am sorry for cursing.
I wish it was as easy to tell it to go away.. It's not that easy.
I don't know what to say now anymore.. Depression has gotten bad and during exams, it's been worse. Having depression and exam together is not a good combination and is nothing than hell ..
I just want it gone. I want them gone.
I don't know if saying this will work, because it will not.. It's not easy.. It's hard to cope with this.. And it's hard very hard to get them away from me or anyone.. I don't know anymore what I am saying..
I am done.
@Faithmagic have you spoken to a counsellor?
I think it's vital to do so and continue writing here.
Although I wish you well for exams please remember that health comes first and your priority needs to be your wellbeing even if you hate yourself right now.
The self hatred and procrastination could be coming from the depression so don't beat yourself up about it.
Please try be very gentle with yourself. Breathe deeply and hug yourself if you can, or imagine yourself as a little child you wish to comfort.
Take care
@anonyLemon4233
No I haven't, no one knows and understands and I am a teenager so you can guess..
And thank you very much for your support 💙 It means a lot to me.
@Faithmagic what is stopping you?
I think some support would help you.
Usually education institutions would have some kind of counselling services. Where I used to teach students would come to me as a guidance teacher to offload some problems and then we would decide together if it was necessary to inform a counsellor.
You do not have to do this on your own.
