I feel as if my mental health is declining fast
So I’m just gonna vent here, I know this place is full of people who are probably experiencing worse situations then me but all the same I still feel like I need to talk about it, these past days I’ve noticed I’m more tired then usual and I’m always tired, there’s this constant feeling of dread in my head I’m so unmotivated, I tried talking to my family but my momma isn’t the understanding type and my brother downplays my issues, (father is not in the picture) my sister is the only one I can talk too but she’s dealing with her own issues so I don’t really like to vent to her, I don’t think I’m suicidal I don’t think I could Jill myself although sometimes I think that if I were dead I wouldn’t be feeling like this, I know that’s a horrible way to think but it’s the truth, my friends are there for me but they just don’t seem to understand my situation which only makes it worse for me, my upbringing wasn’t the best and I’ve always been a bottle up my feelings typa guy and I think all the years of stress and trauma are flooding back to me, I hope this is just a phase because if this goes on for too long I’m scared I might make a stupid decision, to be clear I don’t intend to harm myself or anyone else I’m just lost and I feel like I’m suffering in silence I don’t know what to do and that fact alone makes it 10x worse. If you read this thank you so much I’m sorry you had to hear all that but I didn’t know what else to do or who to turn to.
Thinking about you / and can relate - your brain is feeling off and it goes dark until it’s not as dark. At least that is how I am seeing this hopeless not hopeless feeling that has all of a sudden hijacked me! Hugs for sharing / ⭐️
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first of all; don’t you ever feel like you have to apologize for needing to be helped, or even just needing to be cared for. there will always be somebody who has it worse than you, but that doesn’t necessarily mean you’re not allowed to acknowledge when you feel misery or alone, okay? your life matters just as much as anybody elses, so the comparing doesn’t do jack but make you feel worse about yourself. your friends, your guardian(s), or anybody for that matter will never be able to understand your situation because they’re not YOU. you can never genuinely try to take a step in somebody elses shoes, because it will never be the same or have the same impact for certain folks. a lot of the time we try to envision ourselves in somebody else’s place, and think its not so difficult, or we can manage but we shouldn’t do that because we don’t get it even if we convince ourselves we do. and im really fucking sorry you’re at a time where you feel lonely. loneliness is an indescribable feeling, i know that much. and i can tell you you’re not alone a million times but you’ll still feel alone, until this feeling passes for you. and its really good you took the step to look for somewhere to rant, or somewhere you can feel comfort or get rid of that loneliness encaving you, right? im sorry if im talking in circles or saying a whole lot of nothing i just don’t like seeing folks feeling terrible feelings that i know the feeling of. it sucks, it truly does. for trauma, thats not something that can be healed, unless opened up about in my opinion. you can inbox me if you feel comfortable touching onto that if you want to. my biggest advice to you right now though, is to find comfort in something. whether it be music, a show, anything that you feel yourself finding safe in. once you’ve got that locked, and gradually start caring again i think your motivation in general will start to build again.