I'm scared, I don't know how much longer I can do this

I don't know what to do...after all this my mother is telling me, its to expensive to study in the US....she's asking me if I can just study here, when I told her they don't really focus that much on education here and don't have really good resources. what if they both decide no...? the US might be my only chance to make it out of here...staying here will make me more dependent on them, they can lock me down here. In the US at least I can work do internships, do anything....even today she said she'll never let me go with a smile on her face. I felt chills run down my spine. I'm scared. if I can't get away they are going to force they're I deals on me. especially that woman. Get married, have children, do this do that. I don't want that, I really don't. If I can't get away, I'm ending it, I don't care, A life liven on their terms is better not liven at all. everything. I'm so scared, I don't like them, help me. I don't want to be here, someone save me, please anyone...