Just somethin..

Okay lemme start from the beginning so me and them started to just text say gn and morning and we were okay but...I started to miss when they were gone alot and I cried at times...but I started to get mad about it and I tried controlling that so many times bc they were always going to be back later but this time I couldn't control that and I said so many bad things..I yelled at them on call to shut up and I've been reflecting on how I acted I was a terrible girlfriend it's been 107 days since their mom heard them crying bc of me and told them to open the door they said okay then hung up and they haven't been online since, after I apologized for saying that stupid stuff they said I love you and I said I love them too but I can't stay I'm sorry I want to stay but it's not a healthy relationship I'm sorry but my answer is no and I forgot to mention that I just wanted a break because I wanted to change how I was and I didn't want to see them cry anymore but I didn't so that's really on me after I said that they screamed and cried don't leave me and their mom was at the door knocking on and telling him to open it and they said okay they open the door I'm assuming after they hung up on me and they haven't been online since also it's been like a few days and almost 3 months so I feel like we would have made up that day but something prevented that from happening bc their mom might be the reason they hung up

Sorry for this long rant no one has to care it's just something I've been dealing with and the worst part is today if my anniversary with them.