Numb.

There are days when nothing can ruin my mood, but then there are days when I don't even want to get out of bed. It all just seems so pointless. A few months ago I opened up to my parents about my issues, they did act understanding for a few days, but then they went back to their usual selves. My grandparents hate me and are always trying to start fights. I act nonchalant in front of them as a defence mechanism, but then they just call me arrogant and useless. Then I just feel a numb sadness, suicidal thoughts start to barge in. Then the next day they act like nothing happened. It's a vicious cycle.