TW Subsence use, Self harm
I feel empty and sick. I dont know why I am like this I try to be nice and it takes so much energy everyone walks all over me and its not okay! I try to put everyone before me because everyone in my life means so much to me, but my family makes me feel not welcomed and loved. I cant do *** no more I have no energy for this. All I wanna do is lay in bed and cry and cry. Im spoussed to be happy but I cant help I have to struggle I am human too. I don't wanna feel so I get high and it numbs it so I will never be able to be sober again. I messed that up just like everything, I want to be happy again when I could smile and it not be fake. I want to believe in love again I want to believe that love is coming my way but whenever it does its fake and my heart hurts afterwards. All I ever wanted in my life is too be loved and accpected but I never get it, All I get is long nights overthinking, Following self-harm I wanna break this cycle cuz now Im the big red flag in the relationship constantly thinking and questioning if their out cheating using me for my body, I don't know. I just want my smile back but it will never be back : (.
Tagging peeps who might wanna be tagged:
@LynLyn87 @K1ngJulian @Bubblesystem @Heartsandrosesandpaws @Famousturtle101 @Finny17 (Sorry if u ain't wanna be)
@Maeeeeebae999
Oohh Mae! I'm so sorry you are going through this, but I've been there too, and so have so many other. You are not alone! I don't care that I'm an internet stranger, I love you and care about you. Things are difficult now, but they won't be forever. It's hard to move forward but you can do hard things, I know you can. Our struggles are similar and it's terrible you are going through that but im here and I understand and you can always come to me. Other are here for you too. You are loved dearest and it's okay to not be okay
-Lynie Lyn <3
@LynLyn87 Thank you lynie lyn this brought tears to my eyes 🥺 Thank you for caring I love you and care about you too! <3
@Maeeeeebae999
Im always here :)
@Maeeeeebae999
Self harm is very complex and personally I think it’s to do with self hatred and anger. Some people lash out towards others when they’re frustrated while others take things out on themselves. If you want to break this cycle you need to look at potential triggers. Are you hanging out with people who encourage you to take various substances or are you surrounding yourself with those who want you to be in your prime- not abusing substances and actually showing care and compassion? You need to manage your stress and look at ways of dealing with it.
@Maeeeeebae999
remind me to respond later!!! I wanna respond just tired rn
@Finny17 I will i love ur pfp btw <3
@Maeeeeebae999
mae, always put yourself first, ik its hard and i struggle with it to but you gotta put yourself first no matter what. Im so sorry stupid people have made you feel this way but reading this i was reminded of myself a few years back and ik everyone says it gets better but you definitely learn how to cope and take care of yourself better <3 Dont ever give up
