Trapped
Hi I'm Isabella and I don't even know where to start from. I've never been one to share my feelings and I have been okay with that. Or atleast that's what I tell myself. Now it just feels like am trapped with no one to turn to. It feels like everything in my life is falling apart. I can't talk to my dad or mum because they make it worse. Everyday feels like the same and I just want time to pass but even if it does my life is just empty and all I feel is extreme sadness. So much sadness I don't know what to do with. I want to concentrate on making money so I can live the best life but that just seems like a fantasy. Some said something about how if he doesn't make money at a certain age he would kill himself and I've been having those thoughts. Because my life is in circles and I can't decide if I hate my biological mother or if I should get to know her. I tell myself I'm fine but even I know that's a lie cause I just feel numb but sad at the same time
Isabella Making money might make you happy temporarily but it won't lead to a fulfilled life for you. It's really important to share your feelings when you're like this and not hide from them. I'd love to have a chat with you about some of these things so please message me 🙂
Hi Isabella. I feel very similar to you. I never share my real emotions or tell people what I’m feeling and for so long that was fine, but for the past year, especially with covid, I feel like I’m slowly sinking and no one knows how I feel so no one can help me. If I would talk to my parents they would say that I’m overreacting and that there are people worse off than me, or they would just care about themselves and be angry about my emotions because they’ve done so much for me. And my “friends” don’t care. Like why would you want to constantly be around someone who’s sad and talk about feelings rather than just be with happy or even neutral people. I also want to go into a career that is basically you’re in it and amazing at it and can make loads of money, or you don’t at all, and I feel like I would be the latter. So I won’t make any money. So what would my life be if I stay alive? Poor, lonely and sad? I don’t want to live that life.