failed

hello everyone. for a little bit of background, i have been a straight a student for my whole life, and i’ve had big dreams of going to college and being successful. i’m in my freshman year of highschool, and i did something stupid that got me two days of in school suspension. i feel like all of my dreams have been crushed and i’m working for nothing. no school will except someone who has discipline issues on their record right? anyways this isn’t the only reason that i feel like this, i’ve felt like this for a long time. this event just really pushed me over the edge. i can’t go a day without having at least 10 mental breakdowns. any advice?