feeling lost
I've been around my aunts and cousins for 6 months now and i feel like absolute shit. i thought after leaving my parents and siblings maybe it would give me a chance to move on in life and strengthen my self esteem. but no, ite been bad. I'm stuck in this over religious life where everything I do gets dissected like I was a frog or something. I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna be a muslim, I don't wanna fake being happy. I wanna leave this country as fast as possible but my parents aren't letting me and I feel like my mental health is spiralling down thousand feet down. I wish I could find someone who was once in my situation and could give me guidance
@niceYard9434 Hi there, thank you for reaching out, that takes a lot of courage and I'm proud of you. I'm sorry that leaving your parents didn't give you the satisfaction you were hoping for, that must feel pretty disappointing.
No one should have to fake being happy or fake a part of their identity. I hope you are able to get out of that situation soon, we are all here for you on 7cups! 
Hey there! I know how you are feeling right now because I am going through the same thing. I'm going to collage soon but my parents refuse to let me go to another country. It's very toxic at home my parents are both very aggressive and abusive towards me and I don't know what to do. I'm already suffering from trauma about being s*xully abused more than 5 times as a child and I'm 16 today. Also I come from a strict Muslim family so I know your feeling. I just want you to know that you are not alone in this and the best thing I can say to you right now is to try and understand yourself try finding yourself again. I know it's hard in this situation but my best advice is not blame the religion because our family is using it wrongly Little by little I believe we will find our way out of the toxicity. Also another advice it might be hard but try talking with your siblings or cousins they might understand and get you. I don't have siblings and I feel like this is the best thing you can do at the moment Best of luck and I love you🤍