hi there (vent)

hey everyone, I’m new here and recently I’ve been struggling so much with family infighting and having a *** relationship with my mom because she refuses to take any responsibility for herself, so instead she takes out anger on me and tells me I need to shut up and change when I was the one begging her to change the whole time . It’s so unfair and I hate living like this . It’s made me so incredibly depressed and hopeless about my life and my future because I feel like I have nobody on my side these days. My mom is supposed to be the most important person in my life and she wants nothing to do with me. I just wish I could disappear and hide away from all this forever : (