it’s getting bad again

i thought I was doing better. I felt a lot better for a while, but now it’s all crashing down again. I can barely pull myself out of bed. I feel empty and cold and I’m not hungry. I’m struggling with my body image again and I’ve been having these terrible thoughts that I haven’t had in years. I just lost a friend to suicide in January, and it’s hitting even harder now. I always want to save everyone and help everyone and be there for everyone, but no one is there for me. Im struggling. It’s getting bad again and I don’t think I can stop it. Memories are flooding back and I thought I was strong but I’m not.