unsure // trigger warning

I don't know if this is normal or not. no matter how i feel, i always think about dying. it doesn't matter if im angry, happy, sad, excited... at one point in my day, i'm bound to think of myself dying; whether its suicide or some freak accident differs from day to day. i don't know how common this is, or what i can do to... stop, i guess. im afraid one day if things are bad, since its so normal to me to think about my own death, im just gonna go ahead and end it without a second thought... i don't have the money to do therapy so thats not an option. also, i've been like this since around the end of my sophomore year, and now i'm at the end of my senior year. i really don't know what to do.