Down and out
For the past almost 2 1/2 years now, I'm falling into a depression I can't get out of I think. I caught my husband cheating and haven't been the same since. I have completely lost all attraction to him and maybe love as well...I really don't know. The thought of not having him around makes me cry but being with him everyday irks every fiber of my being. I have tried to divorce 3 times but he will not sign papers, on top of all that he threatens to say lies to keep me from getting custody of our 3 year old daughter. I'm in fear of just leaving because I don't want to lose my child for one second but the mental abuse is killing me. And making me spiral into a funk I've never dealt with before. I just need advice or mental help or something. He calls me a cunt, stupid bitch, bad mom, etc every day. I wish I could Afford a therapist but I can't so here I am..
@funnyFarm6898
That is just abusive of your husband. To be caught cheating and then to turn around and torture you with refusing to leave, threats and then verbal abuse is just so horrible and I am so so so sorry you have to deal with that.
I know this hard, but don't give up on your happiness. Please try to find someone who can help you figure out how to remove yourself from this situation. Do you have family or friends who could help you as you try to figure out a plan? Are there any organizations where you live that could help you find a way to leave with your child? Your mental health matters and to stay in a situation that is pulling you down this far is really so unfair.
I am so sorry you are going through and I am sending you lots of prayers for peace and happiness.