Hello
I’m 19, I’m really nonchalant and I don’t show a lot of emotions, I usually hold them in side but it’s hard sometimes. I don’t really know if this depression I’m feeling. I hate being here, I feel like I’m living for other people. I’ve been feeling this way for years I’m not suicidal but I wish the world would end a little faster. I usually don’t be this emotional but lately alot of my family have been passing away I just feel like my life is falling apart and I’m hurt .
Hi there. I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling. It sounds like you could be experiencing depression. Have you tried to go to your doctors to ask for help and talk about these thoughts you have been having ? You don’t need to be suicidal to be depressed. I have suffered with depression myself before and the only way I can describe it is you can be in a room full of people you love and care about, but still feel completely along and blank! It sounds like you have suffered a lot of loss as well, which you might benefit from talking therapy? There are lots of resources out there to help you that are free, like phone lines to speak to a stranger if you didn’t want to see someone face to face. Sometimes talking to an outsider can help. Equally I have found that talking to a loved can also help. It’s nice to know there is someone in your life that knows what you are going through and how you are feeling. If you haven’t done this already, please do! It will be a weight off your shoulders and they would want to know if you were suffering like this xx