Hi
My name is Marialena and im 19. Im struggling with a lot in my life the last months. My parents broke up and my father says its my fault. My boyfriend always tries to help me and i think he got tired to do this. He has something but he doesn't talk to me. I talk to him for everything and he doesn't. I feel awful. I feel like everything thats happening is my fault. Im underweight and i should eat at least 4 times the day. I can't. When im sad i cant eat. Today i haven't eat anything and im lying toy mom that i eat so she won't be worrying. My boyfriend says im oppressive because im asking him if he is okay (he doesn't seem okay). I don't know what to do. The last month i think that im useless more and more everyday. I dont have money for a therapist and i know i need one. I really don't know what to do. I want to give up on everything. I can't handle this anymore
Btw my father kicked me out of the house because my mom dumped him and aa i said he says that its my fault
Hi Marialena i just want to let you know NONE of this is your fault at all, okay. Dealing with family can be very overwhelming and parents in particular don’t usually like to take responsibility even though they’re the adults so they blame the most vulnerable people, their children. With your boyfriend maybe give him some time, some people are very closed in regards to their emotions and don’t like feeling as if they’re pushing everything onto someone when that person is going through hell aswell, so just give him time and let him know your there, he will come around. With your mum i believe that regardless if you lie to her she’s going to find out that you haven’t been eating, and i feel as if, if she finds out you haven’t and then on top of that you was lying she might feel a bit more hurt, i always believe the truth is the best thing to tell even if it means worrying someone a little at least they can trust you and are aware, and don’t worry girl you got this. You aren’t useless your anything but that someone ever doubt yourself, you do more than you realise. xx
Thank you so much. I just feel that im not my self anymore. I cry without reason sometimes, i have panic attacks and thats not me. I feel like im lost inside my mind
