I feel sad and lonely

Hello I'm Tanaka, i feel sad, lonely and angry all the time.I feel lonely even when I'm surrounded by friends and family.

Idk, sometimes I'm sad, i feel alone and angry then sometimes I'm fine. Well normally I'm fine but under that its like I'm always sad.

Like every time I look at my phone i only get messages from sch grp or you. Like idk, it makes me feel lonely you know, like i don't have someone who regularly checks up on me.even like the conversations i have with people aren't really meaningful or they don't last long.

Like most of time when I hang out with friends, i usually feel left outside. It feels like I'm not there but I'm there if you get what I'm saying. I when I'm hanging out with friends i usually expect to have a good time and interact but i judt feels like I'm just there physical you know.