I'm depressed and heartbroken

Hey there everyone!

My name is Daniel and I'm 19 years old.

I hope everyone here is doing great and is hanging on, I just wanted to share my story because I don't know what to do anymore and I have no one to talk to about this.

Ok so I was in a distance relationship and I know people are going to judge me because "they don't work" but I really thought she loved me, we video-called everyday and she even introduced me to her family members and told them how much she wants to be with me and I was going to come over to her whenever I got holidays from college and so I did I bought tickets with the money i got for my birthday and I was the happiest person ever knowing that I will finally get to hug her but 2 weeks before I was meant to come over she told me that she doesn't feel well enough and that I deserve someone better and that she doesn't want to be with me, I really don't know what I've done that was so bad and I know for a fact that she doesn't have anyone else.

I'm so depressed and I cry myself to sleep everyday, I miss her so much I keep thinking about her voice and her face and I can't cope with it anymore I'm really lost.

I feel like an absolute loser because I told my family about her and they were all happy for me that I finally found someone thay loves me.

All the plans I had for us both just just gone 😭